Sunsets and silhouette dreams ♥

moved!

2010-10-09T18:43:00.000-07:00

I have officially moved to tumblr...I'm still gonna keep this blog for the links and long time posts so yea.tumblr. go find out yourself.

Sunday Best

2010-08-01T03:18:00.000-07:00

Evening! It Sunday today.Such a lazy Sunday.It has been raining since morning.I have dont completely nothing.Except for my malay project.I was just practically sitting on my desk trying to plan for whats coming up for the month.Its already august! can you believe it! that was like freaking fast.Woah! i gotta start studying.That reminds me if got a history test tomorrow and guess what! i left my book in class!Great.Soo much for starting to study.Anyway,i just really cant wait for the next few months! Lots of awesome crap to look forward too.

-PUASA!

-Hari raya!

-Najiha’s birthday

okay basically thats it so far.but its just gonna be awesome!

when i grow up,i wanna be famous,i wanna be a star,i wanna be in movies…

2010-07-16T18:07:00.000-07:00

ive had a dream which i think almost everyone had.no its not the one where you come out of the curtains naked standing in front of a whole crowd.its the one where i do vocal exercise,my band mates start tuning the guitar,we all pray to god,i grab my mic and then finally we run out of the curtains with our first song of the day.it then becomes the time where we go on tour,performing in front of the whole world.people looking up to us.they feel sorry for what they have done and we try to forgive.we live life like there’s no tomorrow that feeling of ”my future is planned out.music.you cant do anything about it” i know everyone has dreamed about it,people think i am doing this all because of the money.it the passion that i had since young.it not just about me its about going out there and having a good time sharing that feeling and that one thing mostly all of us love.music.i wanna be able to do things like this that makes you feel as if…its just unexplainable.i just love that feeling.i know i have not been there yet but i can feel it.i can see it.i know one day i will do it.no matter what.i know i will fail going there but i am willing to do just anything to get up there in that stage in front of everyone.

life's greatest

2010-07-09T05:51:00.000-07:00

Life’s greatest tragedy is not that it will someday end, but that most only live to follow directions and sometimes, we end up totally lost, Alex Gaskarth

Why isnt your blog updated? :( -Najiha

2010-07-03T18:33:00.001-07:00

cause i malas...plus nothing interesting has happen...

Ask me anything

Oh glory!

2010-06-28T03:54:00.000-07:00

School started today and i entered school with a healthy mind thinking nothing shitty will screw up my day and semester when i realise i forgot to bring my report book.Then i thought,Okay i am screwed.i headed to meet natasha at the usual place.Copied math homework and the bell ringed.i headed to the quadrangle to meet the rest of the class.Said hi to a couple of my friends before settling down.Smiled at my form teacher giving her the hint ’ do not screw up my new semester,i’m begging.’and she walked off.Then we sang the national song and walked back to class for form teacher and class conference as the first lesson.the first thing she ask was report book and then said ‘those who did not bring,bring tomorrow.’ and i was sigh,thank god.Whose gonna screw up now.then mother tongue was next,nothing much.Recess had nothing much.nothing much actually happen for the rest of the day.I was just that plain invisible me.Which i like.

Missing

2010-06-22T22:41:00.001-07:00

I know i have been a total M.I.A.Firstly its cause of my fever.Second its because of my laptop.Anyway i totally cancelled all my plans cause of this freaking fever.What a way to spend my last week of holidays.My voice sounds like a frog.Hahahaha…Okay,anyway schools gonna open soon and i am ready for the worst but i am damn sure i will do my best cause of the sixteen birthday deal thing.I can finally watch late night movies in my room cause i have a computer in here!Awesome…okay i have totally nothing to say.

Perfectly Lonely

2010-06-18T02:47:00.000-07:00

Don’t rush into relationships because John Mayer once said, “Good love is on the way, I’ve been lonely but I know I’ll be okay,” and somehow in his music he always has a point..

murder at 12

2010-06-17T19:21:00.000-07:00

I’m back from malaysia!It kinda sucks but i managed to survived.I just wish everything was back to the way it was.Like i have not met amazing people that have atually make my life go round cause once you guys leave,it does not feel the same way again.It could have just be like normal.You guys should not be here in the first place cause all i know is you would leave in the end Well atleast i still have people who would be there for me like lynn and naj!.thks you guys.Back to my trip,bought nothing but chewing gum.There wasnt anything to shop for besides,i was not really in the mood for shopping.So i am back in singapore back to reality and back to school soon!

was a post from me tumblr,too malas to rewrite

save me San francisco

2010-06-14T22:10:00.000-07:00

So sorry for not blogging this few days.Been quite busy doing shits.

So watched karate kid and it was awesome!At the age of 11 he already has a six packed body!

How amazing.Okay back,not really posting much on blogger cause no one usually reads the shit i put up her plus my computer is being crappy.i have to reformat it!So not gonna be here for quite sometime.It sucks.HEADING TO JOHOR TOMORROW.Bummer.Its gonna be boring i guess.Well,looks like more sneaking out of the hotel after midnight.That's the only best part i guess...

i'll keep that in mind...

2010-06-11T21:03:00.000-07:00

“When a guy cheats on you once, he will do it again. If he gives you butterflies, remember that when he was your boyfriend, he was kissing somebody else. The sooner you set the bar for what is acceptable, the better off you’ll be. We’ve all fallen for someone who’s not great for us, but when the alarm bell starts ringing, you have to listen.”

—	One Tree Hill

sorry dude...

2010-06-08T18:44:00.000-07:00

that goes to you

2010-06-08T05:33:00.000-07:00

8(

2010-06-07T05:34:00.000-07:00

BYE!

2010-06-03T16:49:00.000-07:00

HEADING OFF TO MALAYSIA!WILL BE BACK ON SUNDAY!

live it...

2010-06-02T22:09:00.000-07:00

It is crazy how certain little things can make you think about life. Make you realize that you might not be living your life to the fullest. And make you realize that you just need to live life because you never know when you won’t be able to. Just look for the positive things in life and don’t worry about the negative. Learn from mistakes, but never regret.
Cale Bloskas

yea you are...

2010-06-01T06:52:00.000-07:00

I didn’t give up on you, I just decided you weren’t worth it.

stupid stupid me...\

2010-05-29T19:52:00.000-07:00

i have come to the point to realise i was a total idiot!

i cant believe i was about to shut down everything.i now know what i have to do to get everything back to place.

2010-05-27T02:17:00.000-07:00

i end right here,right now.As i ran back through my life,i stop at one point of time.i dropped what i was holding and a tear ran down my face.i remembered the smiles i made on my parents face.i could not forget that.i would never.i don't know what had brought me to such i place like this.i have never been able to put a smile like that on their face ever again.i tried and fail.i tried again and i fail.this time.i failed miserably.i just don't ever know how to do it again.i wanna put a smile like that on their face and i want them not to forget it but i just guess it is now impossible.i know there are chances.i know there is another time but i want to do it now.i don't them to suffer anymore.i know behind those fake smiles they hurt so badly.they are disappointed in what i have done to them.i know that they are actually happy but i also know that every time they think of my future,it kills them.i know very well that is kills them so badly.i just wanna see that again.i just don't wanna replay that again.i wanna see it live in front of me.With that.i end here.i end everything i end almost half of my life.i now live as a total nobody even though i already am a nobody.i end blogging.i end everything.like i said i end half of my life.Anyone can try and put some sense into my brain but i would deny it. fairy tales and dreams come true.that's what they all say that they will come true but all and all they don't and i know it.No matter what i will only return once i put a smile on my parents face.once i put a smile a bright and real smile on my face and on everyone Else's.i am a failure from here but i know i will never be one at the end.i know what i would do to bring that moment back to my life.i know i am not just gonna stand here and wish for it to come.i end here now.the blog would never be deleted.it would be part of my past.

this is what i get when i let my heart win....

2010-05-25T01:47:00.000-07:00

No time to blog!

gotta meet my friends who are waiting for me!

bye!!

Ignorance is your new best friend.

2010-05-24T03:57:00.000-07:00

feeling paramore today!!!

hahahahaha.....okay so had school to day.last day so called the next three days are like learning journeys.BORING! eh.i played pacman on google.fun.hahaha

okay stupid anyway mum and dad are planning a Malacca trip on the 4,5,6 of June and i don't wanna go!cause firstly it would be boring and that's it.okay maybe the shopping would be fun but i don't know...stupid me!

okay anyway i just so insecure.we had this sexuality talk in the morning and i feel so insecure,stupid,sinful in my life.Its like if in die now,it would immediately be one straight ticket to hell.No one knows what the i have been up to in my past.Its all coming back to me now!Damn i don't how to explain it.

(P.S.i am fine... just guilty)

and this is just for me.

just go to the right road Natissha! don't ever fall back on that path again.it just a waste of time and a waste of your precious moments in life.you have the best friends in the world right now.the best people around you that would never make you fall back again.maintain in that position and you will be fine.just remember everything is gonna be fine even though it is not.be happy.live life cause you are a teenager only once.not ever again.your only fourteen you should be living a wonderful life right.be happy!

Now give me money (that's what I want)

2010-05-23T00:48:00.000-07:00

OMG!

i have so many things to save for! Only half of my piggy bank is full.My piggy bank is not a pig! Its a...i don't really know what character it is but it is so cute.hahaha

okay

so i wanna save up for things like

.a canon eos 550D which my dad is gonna pay half for!yay!!

.canon printer

.fairy lights for my rooms

.a nice wallpaper for my room

.MY WRECKED SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY PARTY!

which is gonna be huge i swear!hehehe

okay so if i calculate,its gonna be a total of maybe estimated 5000?

okay maybe a lot a lot more...yup a lot times 2!okay okay...mummy daddy you need to increase my allowance!! or i would go to work!

hahahah.i bet if i go on a part time job i would be kicked out at the end of my first day!

hahahahaha....

i need to motivation to not spend so much money! its like every time i go out i have to spend every single cent! i am a spendaholic! Is there such a thing? If there is,i am definitely one and i am not proud of it.

Ever fallen in, in love with someone you shouldn’t have fallen in love with

2010-05-22T23:36:00.000-07:00

hows everyone?

okay so for the past few days i have been out a lot.so...i have been listening to this band called the stiff Dylans.I knew them from Angus thongs and perfect snogging the movie but their other songs are awesome.Anyway,i hit my head pretty bad on a wall so if any shit comes out.

i am sorry!

okay so i finally took the time to fix up all the links on my blog.Now i need to find time to fix my blog skins.Actually i am just to malas.Most of you should know that.Hehehe.Anyway i don't want this Thursday to come! cause it is results day!dang...its gonna be like hell.Seriously.

I WILL SURVIVE!

hahaha.Okay i am gonna play the keyboard.

see ya!

tempting....

2010-05-22T07:09:00.000-07:00

bitch...

2010-05-22T00:34:00.000-07:00

And I'll borrow words from all my favourite paragraphs

2010-05-20T02:20:00.001-07:00

We deny that we’re tired, we deny that we’re scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed. And most importantly, we deny that we’re in denial. We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe, and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can’t recognize the truth right in front of our faces.

so much for not bringing a wallet...

2010-05-19T01:53:00.000-07:00

hey!

so did not go to school today also as i had to follow my dad to the hospital.Stoned there for an hour.I had company though.Some random dude sat next to me and we started talking about alternative bands.Random.Anyway than met Karlynah and Najiha at downtown to have lunch.

Wanted to print out some pictures but had no money so Karlynah had to pay for me.I thought it would be one dollar plus as that is what it said but it turned out to a total of 3.50!

i was so shock!So i am gonna pay her ore tomorrow! and i have to go back to the shop to pay the lady 25 cents.Total bullshit!A lot for not bringing a wallet.Anyway,i a finally heading back to school tomorrow.I don't wanna get my results back! I don't wanna see the disappointment.

dang it but nvm I'll just take it in and forget about it.So that's about it.

natt

my thoughts you cant decode...

2010-05-17T02:32:00.000-07:00

alright.

so this few day have been really though on me.Just some really hard times.But hopefully I'll just get over it.Anyway i just wanna take the time to thank Karlynah & Najiha for everything!

Thanks you guys.

YouTube is really slow nowadays!!

Anyway the holidays are coming up and i really have to straighten things out with myself.i have to be a whole lot better person than i used to be and i have to do so many other things

Anyway there is no school tomorrow!

good good good....

keep calm...

2010-05-17T01:53:00.000-07:00

2010-05-15T07:46:00.000-07:00

I don’t feel like I should burden my friends with my problems when I really want to talk about them because I always remember that they might have it worse than me… So I stay quiet.unknown

i just...

2010-05-14T18:48:00.000-07:00

I act so tough on the outside, like nothing in the world bothers me. Secretly, I just want someone to notice something when they look in my eyes. To know that I reall am not okay. I would be so happy if just one person stopped and asked me what’s wrong.

hair!

2010-05-11T00:39:00.000-07:00

i wanna cut my hair like her!!

cassadee pope!!

love her shirt<3

when fairytales turn to reality

2010-05-10T02:47:00.000-07:00

2010-05-09T23:00:00.000-07:00

Nobody knows a lot about me. They think they do, but they have no idea. Nobody really knows me, because nobody asks. And the fact that nobody asks makes me think, do they even really care?unknown

take this to the heart

2010-05-07T03:06:00.000-07:00

You said it hurts and you know that I believe you. Searching every little thing to find a way to tell your heart just to wait a little longer. I swear we’ll make it.Mayday Parade, “Take This To Heart”

dreams...

2010-05-06T00:56:00.000-07:00

In our dreams everything is perfect. But, god can’t see your dreams so you have to take action to show him what it is. And, maybe, he’ll get the message and actually make it true.unknown

we believe...

2010-05-05T01:18:00.000-07:00

2010-05-04T00:21:00.000-07:00

Today I feel like crying and I have no idea why. I’m not sad and I haven’t gotten any bad news I just simply feel like crying for no reason at all. Ever have one of these days?unknown

turn it all off...

2010-05-03T02:21:00.000-07:00

And the worst part is: before it gets any better, we’re headed for a cliff. And in the free fall, I will realize I’m better off when I hit the bottom.Paramore, “Turn It Off

life...

2010-05-02T19:27:00.000-07:00

"Life changes every minute of every day. You lose friends. You gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really your friend, and that person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love. You lose love. You realize all long that you’ve been loved. You laugh. You cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t done that. You then learn from that and are glad that you did. You have your ups. You have your downs. You see good movies. You see bad movies. You wonder if your life is just one big movie. You look at others and wish you were them. You then realize who they are and are glad that you’re you. You love life. You hate life. In the end you just find yourself happy to be living life, no matter what’s thrown at you."

2010-05-02T19:02:00.000-07:00

BOLD.

My personality.

I’m loud.
I’m obnoxious.
I’m sarcastic.
I’m cocky.
I cry easily.
I have a bad temper.
For the most part, I don’t like people.
I’m easy to get along with.
I like to fight.
I have more enemies than friends.
I drink coffee.
I clean my room daily.

My appearance.

I’m shorter than 5’5. (I think)
I wear makeup.
I wear a piece of jewellery at all times.
I wear contacts.
I wear glasses.
I’ve had braces.
I have braces.
I change my hair color often.
I straighten my hair often.
My ears are pierced.
I have small feet.

Relationships.

I’m in a relationship now.
I’m single.
I’m crushin’.
I’ve missed an ex before.
I’m always scared of being hurt.
An ex has physically abused me at least once.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve been in love more than two times.
I believe in love at first sight.
I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships.

I have a best friend(s).
I have at least ten friends.
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
I’ve beaten up a friend.
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences.

I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been on a train.
I’ve left the state/province.
Someone close to me has died.
I’ve taken a taxi.
I’ve taken a city bus.
I’ve taken a school bus.
I’ve gone bungee jumping.
I’ve made a speech.
I’ve been in some sort of club.
I’ve won an award.
I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
I’ve been in a physical fight.

Music.

I listen to country.
I listen to some pop.
I listen to techno.
I listen to rock.
I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
I download music.
I buy CD’s.

Television.

I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
I watch soap operas daily.
I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
I’ve seen and like The OC.
I’ve seen and like One Tree Hill.
I’ve seen and like America’s Next Top Model.
I’ve seen and like Popular.
I’ve seen and like House.
I’ve seen and like 24.
I’ve seen and like CSI.
I’ve seen and like Everwood.

Family life.

I get along with both of my parents.
My biological parents are still together.
I have at least one brother.
I have at least one sister.
I have at least one step brother/sister.
I have at least one half brother/sister.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I’ve ran away from my home.
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve made my parents cry.
I’ve lied to my parents.
I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.
I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded.

Hair.

I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
I’ve been blonde.
I’ve had black.
I’ve been red.
I’ve been light brown.
I’ve been medium brown.
I’ve been brown.
I’ve had streaks.
I’ve had purple/pink.
I’ve been blue/green.
I’ve gotten my hair thinned.
I use conditioner.
I’ve used silk therapy.
I’ve used hot oil treatments.
I’ve curled my hair.
I’ve straightened my hair.
I’ve ironed my hair.
I’ve braided my hair.
I’ve had/want dreadlocks.

School.

I’ve thrown something at a teacher.
I’ve yelled at a teacher.
I’ve been suspended.
I’ve had an in-school suspension.
I’ve been sent to the principal’s office.
I’ve walked out of class.
I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
I’ve failed a test.
I’ve cheated on a test.
I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
I’ve failed Art.
I’ve failed P.E.
I’ve failed Math.
I’ve failed Science.
I’ve failed another class.
A teacher has called my parents.
I’ve been caught skipping.

hahahah...yea...bored...

yea...true that

2010-05-02T04:28:00.000-07:00

It’s been quite awhile… I must say I miss our friendship. I miss you, but what I really miss the most is not just you or us but how it all was.Unknown

2010-05-01T23:49:00.000-07:00

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer. You’re unlike any other. You’ll always be my thunder. Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors. I don’t wanna ever love another. You’ll always be my thunder. So bring on the rain. And bring on the thunder.Boys Like Girls, “Thunder”

This time I will be listening.

2010-05-01T05:57:00.000-07:00

had tons of fun at the Cathay gig...

English and Malay paper one was okay.was released at 12 than headed home straight away...

met najiha at 2.headed to bugis.bought a new shirt which i really like thanks to najiha.

than headed to Cathay...watched my brother's band play

they are awesomeeeee....

planar trajectory...

the band name...

met a friend of mine that i have not met for a very long time...decided to hang around orchard with him...walked around...and finally home at around 2 am...

i know!

and i am sleepy...

it was uber fun!

hehhe

bye!

i wish...

2010-04-29T22:47:00.000-07:00

i want one now...

2010-04-28T04:10:00.000-07:00

i see forgiveness

2010-04-26T05:13:00.001-07:00

wishes...they never really come true...

2010-04-25T04:23:00.001-07:00

I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

2010-04-23T20:11:00.000-07:00

that baby is soo cute...

nothing much...

i have to study!!

MID YEAR EXAMS ARE ALMOST HERE!!

TODAY SKIES ARE PAINTED COLORS OF A COWBOY CLICHE'

2010-04-23T05:31:00.000-07:00

in mac cafe:)

aww...

2010-04-22T05:05:00.000-07:00

airplanes and night skies...

2010-04-21T03:55:00.000-07:00

we are broken

2010-04-20T02:21:00.000-07:00

well....

i cant log into twitter!

dang it....

anyway i have been looking at videos on youtube about piercing my Side Labret which is the side of your lip.i so wanna do that but just the thought of the pain freaks me out....hahahah...

but yea.anyone who is willing to do it with me pls pls tell me!

okay so exams are around the corner and i just cant concentrate...go and study!

tomorrow is wednesday and its one of the most boring day ever...

and theres english oral...which i also did not really study for...like i mean hello! wat is there to study...so yea

bye!

(i have nothing else to say)

hehehe

starbucks

2010-04-19T01:15:00.000-07:00

airplanes

2010-04-18T03:09:00.000-07:00

B.o.B Ft. Hayley Williams - Airplanes Lyrics and Video

[Chorus - Hayley Williams]

Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

[Verse 1 - B.o.B]

Yeah

I could use a dream or a genie or a wish

To go back to a place much simpler than this

Cause after all the partyin’ and smashin’ and crashin’

And all the glitz and the glam and the fashion

And all the pandemonium and all the madness

There comes a time where you fade to the blackness

And when you’re staring at that phone in your lap

And you hoping but them people never call you back

But that’s just how the story unfolds

You get another hand soon after you fold

And when your plans unravel

And they sayin’ what would you wish for

If you had one chance

So airplane airplane sorry I’m late

I’m on my way so don’t close that gate

If I don’t make that then I’ll switch my flight

And I’ll be right back at it by the end of the night

[Chorus - Hayley Williams]

Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

[Verse 2 - B.o.B]

Somebody take me back to the days

Before this was a job, before I got paid

Before it ever mattered what I had in my bank

Yeah back when I was tryin’ to get into the subway

And back when I was rappin’ for the hell of it

But now a days we rappin’ to stay relevant

I’m guessin that if we can make some wishes outta airplanes

Then maybe yo maybe I’ll go back to the days

Before the politics that we call the rap game

And back when ain’t nobody listened to my mix tape

And back before I tried to cover up my slang

But this is for the Cada, what’s up Bobby Ray

So can I get a wish to end the politics

And get back to the music that started this sh-t

So here I stand and then again I say

I’m hopin’ we can make some wishes outta airplanes

[Chorus - Hayley Williams]

Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

tomorrow...

2010-04-16T04:15:00.000-07:00

The truth is hiding in your eyes

2010-04-15T00:59:00.000-07:00

drag myself to school today.nothing much happened.

reached home took a quick shower and headed to alexx's place.i am so gonna get a whole load of crap from my mum when she comes back.i am not suppose to be going out but i just cant help it...

i hate this time so much...i just hate every single piece of shit that's happening right now!

god!could this get any worse....

i just wanna end here right now...

one after another...

how crappy is this.I know i have been such a bad person i mean i did not know how much mistakes i have done in my past.It is just so stupid of me.I have been brought up so nicely and i ended up like this...what the fuck is wrong with me!

I am so fucking useless i bet every one's life is way better without me in it...

imagine all the people...

2010-04-14T02:15:00.000-07:00

i just wanna take a bag of ice and put it on my heart just to cool it down.

it has been beating really fast for no apparent reason.

really i just don't know why but i am just really scared.Scared of what?

i have no idea.Ever since i got back home,i just gotten scared...

but whatever it is i may have an ideal idea of it.

I woke up this morning with no feeling.the only think i thought of was how i was gonna make it through the day.I did not think of anything else.everything was blank to me.headed to Tampines stadium.stoned there for a few hours than you texted me.I scolded you for going against it and i am really sorry.I did not mean too...sorry!

(p.s the thing below is not for you)

i maybe the worst friend,worst person around,the one with the grounding 24/7 but i am just what i am and i cant stop it...no matter what.the day i stepped into the 13th year,i told myself "Forget the past.Its time to live a new.everything is gonna different i promise" i said that to myself but maybe i was wrong.Well at least i tried.I am tired of trying to be someone i am not.

i miss the kind where all i care about is nothing but music and life.

and i remember the all times where all i did was drag myself to school,come home and live life like how it was meant to not be lived the times where i did everything without thinking twice.

i don't care about everything else.

what ever problems that come by me i am just gonna live it alone

cause all and all i just don't give a damn anymore...

do me a favour...

2010-04-13T01:10:00.000-07:00

life

2010-04-12T01:17:00.000-07:00

this is how i wish life was...

you me in heaven

2010-04-11T02:05:00.000-07:00

He was a skater boy

2010-04-10T21:39:00.000-07:00

hangover

2010-04-10T21:35:00.000-07:00

Meet me on Thames Street

2010-04-09T19:00:00.000-07:00

hey...

alright so since Cheryl would be late,decided to blog first before leaving...

hehehe

plans for today

heading to city hall to meet Cheryl...

than shop for awhile...

around 2 meet alexx and the rest...

hang around for awhile...

and head back home...

that's today...

well...the past week.Things have been going okay.had a totally weird dream about someone which i would not be able to tell here...but yea...okay so Monday nothing much...boring as usual...Tuesday had nothing also...got a bit sick.

Wednesday to M.C cause of flu and cough

Thursday had Malay test was quite okay.i managed to finish the paper which was a good thing...,

Friday had math test which was surprisingly okay also.except the first question.that was quite difficult but manage...hahah and

i just realise that every time i listen to the only exception by paramore,i would tear up and i don't know why...i just love the song so much...

yea...

well okay Cheryl just called...bye

long post are cause of not blogging for a very long time....

freedom i need it...

2010-04-09T04:58:00.000-07:00

on a lonely road

2010-04-08T01:07:00.000-07:00

aww....

2010-04-07T03:08:00.000-07:00

yea...

2010-04-06T01:29:00.000-07:00

i need some alone time.. just me myself and i...

2010-04-05T02:52:00.000-07:00

LIFE....

2010-04-03T23:28:00.000-07:00

wat the hell!!!

2010-04-02T07:17:00.000-07:00

hahaha

2010-04-02T07:15:00.000-07:00

hilarious

2010-04-02T05:15:00.000-07:00

if you dont get it

i dont know....

the picture says it all...

2010-03-31T01:36:00.000-07:00

While My Guitar Gently Weeps

2010-03-30T01:23:00.000-07:00

sad...

2010-03-29T02:29:00.001-07:00

Hilarious...

2010-03-27T22:02:00.000-07:00

“

I’m supposed to be reading for school, but hey who needs school? Seriously, come on.

— Josh Farro

“

Some days the only moments you get to yourself are the ones you spend on a toilet. That’s why I take so long to pee.

— Hayley Williams

"Yeah, I’m the dad of the band. Well… Somebody’s gotta do it.

— Josh Farro

I’m sweaty, I probably don’t smell good, but I still look good, right?

— Josh Farro

Hayley: We started out in Josh’s room.
Josh: We did? Oh, right; yeah, we did.

— Hayley Williams & Josh Farro

Gonna pull up my pants… I have an 80’s mom butt.

— Josh Farro

To prepare for a show, Paramore straightens their hair. At least all the guys do. We wanna look pretty. And Hayley warms up.

— Josh Farro

I used to take pictures of my poops. Because I used to do art stuff. They call me ‘Poocasso’. But seriously, there was this one time it even looked lke a dolphin. And a shrimp.

— Jeremy Davis

Interviewer: “So… You’re the only girl in the band. How does that feel?”
Hayley: “OHMYGOD am I’m the only girl?! I didn’t realize!

— Hayley Williams

Hayley: “How do you say ‘Hayley’ in a Scottish accent?”
Jeremy: *in an accent* “Hayley! Hayley! Hayley come here, my trousers fell off.

— Hayley Williams & Jeremy Davis

Interviewer: “How do you break up with someone?”
Jeremy: “I break up with somebody over text message or phone.”
Josh: “I break up with a lot of people on IM.”
Hayley: “What I do, is that I ask my friend to break up with someone for me over instant messenger.

— Jeremy Davis, Josh Farro & Hayley Williams

Josh: “Okay, why are you always filiming? I know I’m hot, but, you know…”
Hayley: “Just so you know, he’s not always like this…”
Josh: “Oh, right. Cause I’m not a funny guy.

— Josh Farro & Hayley Williams

Everyone sat down at a pub but Taylor, Jeremy and I wanted to try something we cant get in America… So we ate McDonalds.

— Zac Farro

Taylor: I’ve never wanted to be blue so badly in my whole life.

Hayley: physically blue? Like a smurf?

Taylor: Avatar. Duh.

Hayley: I’m ashamed of myself. I should’ve known… Avatar was incredible and made up of all my deepest longings in life.

Taylor: amen.

— Taylor York & Hayley Williams

Tell me am i crazy, or is this more than a crush?

2010-03-27T06:25:00.000-07:00

Maybe i'm alone in this

but i find this peace is solitude knowing if i had but just one kiss

This whole room would be glowing,

we'd be glowin, we'd be glowin

-Blame it on the rain-He is We

fuck 0ff

2010-03-26T22:41:00.000-07:00

that's what you get...

2010-03-26T02:44:00.000-07:00

i think i am starting it again...

2010-03-24T02:07:00.000-07:00

fairy light!!

2010-03-23T03:42:00.000-07:00

i wanna get fairy lights in my room!!!

love?

2010-03-22T02:02:00.000-07:00

ba da ba ba da da ba da......

2010-03-21T00:28:00.000-07:00

must watch

2010-03-20T06:38:00.000-07:00

must watch movie....

misguided ghost

2010-03-20T06:35:00.000-07:00

my heart...

2010-03-20T01:00:00.000-07:00

exception??

2010-03-20T00:58:00.001-07:00

rawr

2010-03-20T00:49:00.000-07:00

hilarious shit

La Di Da

2010-03-19T07:24:00.000-07:00

So just a randomly quick update. Holidays did not go so well but who cares. so yea. i am so tired. Tons of thoughts running around. So yea. thoughts like how much i should forget him and theres is no chance of him being with me. So i really think i should just forget it. FORGET IT NATISSHA! okay that was just for me. Been listening to Jet and All time low now...so yea...nice music.

holidays endding =more real pressure...

just plain truth

2010-03-19T07:20:00.000-07:00

all good things come to an end

2010-03-17T19:44:00.000-07:00

I think one of the highest compliments you can give a person is that when you are talking to him, you are not thinking about the fact that you are talking to him. That is, your thoughts and words all exist on a single, engaged level. You are being yourself because you aren’t bothering to think about who you should be. It is like when you talk in a dream.

David Levithan

....

2010-03-15T05:10:00.000-07:00

i need you here with me...

2010-03-15T01:10:00.001-07:00

thats right...

2010-03-12T20:59:00.000-08:00

when i get home...

2010-03-10T02:30:00.000-08:00

"Don’t you sometimes just wish something would happen? Good or bad, just for the sake of something happening."

— Blake Atkins

one night!

2010-03-07T23:57:00.000-08:00

one word

awesome!

had such an amazing night!

there are tons of words to describe it

i just dont know wat to say!

sheessh!

paramore was just such an amazing band to have watched!

natt

its here!!!

2010-03-06T21:33:00.001-08:00

its tonight!!!
so stoked!!!

oh! finally...

2010-03-05T22:34:00.000-08:00

I never saw him again. But every now and then, I find myself wondering where he is and how he’s doing in life. I hope he got everything he ever wanted. I hope he’s happy. I hope he remembers me.

You changed my whole life...

2010-03-03T01:08:00.000-08:00

I think the biggest disease the world suffers from in this day and age is the disease of people feeling unloved. I know that I can give love for a minute, for half an hour, for a day, for a month, but I can give. I am very happy to do that, I want to do that.
Princess Diana